Marvin thought he's loosing it when he heard whispers from behind him where he was sitting. This had been happening for a few days now. At first he thought it's the neighbor's television or conversations bleeding through the walls but it really wasn't. He started feeling sharp pains in his left shoulder. This had started from two nights ago. He generally hadn't felt so well for a month or two now. He thought maybe all that masturbation is catching up to him. He changed his thought.
He knew he had school assignments to finish but he just couldn't get around to starting or finishing them. He wondered why he doesn't like spending time on his assignments anymore while he spent twice that time or maybe even more aimlessly walking around his room, surfing the internet (mostly for downloading porn) and masturbating.
Once when he was getting ready to come while masturbating to a porno he closed his eyes and switched his thoughts towards the girl he likes so much in school. He thought about her naked and in bed with him. But suddenly it felt so bad and wrong to him that he almost lost his entire erection. So he had to start masturbating to the porno again. That was one of the worst masturbation sessions he ever had in his life.
After he came, a few tears started rolling down his eyes partly because his body hurt entirely and mostly because the thought of the girl he likes kept disturbing his momentum and concentration and it felt wrong. So wrong.
Marvin didn't know if he had fallen in love with the girl or it was just another one of his delusional episodes. One day he shoved the assignment he was busy with (for about 10 minutes) aside and started thinking to himself why he liked that particular girl so much. He tried counting down what made her so adorable to him. So hopelessly irresistible.
He couldn't do it. Not because he didn't have points to add to his list but because he hated making lists like this. It was below what he truly felt for her. It was like he didn't like the individual parts about her but as a whole she made him feel happy inside.
The voices behind his back kept talking about how to get rid of bloating corpses and amphetamines.
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